Trying to get that feeling...

The week before Christmas we made a trip back to Ireland, R's Nana passed away, so we went back for the funeral & to be with the family. It was sad, there were tears, but there was also plenty of laughter as stories and memories were shared. She was a well loved member of the family & will be missed. We got to see a lot of family and friends that we hadn't seen in a long time.
But I didn't want to leave, I wanted to stay at home. When we did make it back to London, as much as I love it, I just didn't want to be here....I was so home sick! R's parents flew over to be with us for Christmas & it was lovely to be with family again.
It's a funny one this Christmas lark! I truly believe in the spirit of Christmas , in the excitement, the build up, the mystery, the story, but this year I found it really hard to get into the swing of it all. Normally, I get so excited. Yet, it seemed that no matter how many times I listened to 'Last Christmas', the feeling was not there.
'I've been up, down, tryin' to get the feeling again
All around, tryin' to get the feeling again...'
to quote Barry Manilow {yes, it's true I used to be a huge Manilow fan, well I was 10!}
My sister and nephew are arriving today for new years & I'm looking forward to spending time with them, watching fireworks, lighting sparklers, drinking cava & trying to get that feeling again!